World Sickle Cell Day.

I lost an Aunt (Among others) to SCD.
But in other words I lost her to ILLITERACY.

Her Father was Rich enough that he could bring to World to her feet to CURE her. He would sit down on her bed side & cry all through the crises.
But he didn't know what was happening.
He was SCD illiterate.

She never went  to the hospital through crises (From age 1 to 32), 
The family adopted the believe that it was CIWON SANYI ( Cold Disease) and would stuff her with herbal medicines & (some even suggested weird stuffs like crocodile bones : because it lives underwater and is not affected by cold).

I wished He had known.
I wished She had known.
We lost an entire family (both from the same mum) and a Cousin to Illiteracy. 
To not knowing your genotype.
It hasn't stopped.
We are still loosing them.
I've stopped blaming SCD
I'm blaming the LACK OF AWARENESS (Illiteracy)
I'm blaming AFRICA & the WORLD in general 
I'm blaming those who can SPEAK UP for SCD but are QUITE.
I'm BLAMING  YOU & I.

#BREAKTHESICKLECELLCYCLE 
#KNOWYOURGENOTYPE 

Name : MufidaSadiq 
Genotype: AS (Sickle Cell Carrier )
If I had known since I was 6, what is stopping you?.

(A tribute to Haj  Aisha Mamman Shata Katsina, Ibrahim Mamman Shata Katsina & Amira Salah Shata).

UMHH still cant come up with one..

                                                                           19-4-09

He called me "FATSUMA" which I always didn't like as a child because its "FATIMA" not the old people Fatsuma but meh I got used to it in a short while.
Its always hard for me to believe I was his "favorite" because a day never went by without him sending me on errands for more than 5 times. It always goes like FATSUMAAA & there I come running like an athlete (Usain Bolt ain't got nothing against that) and then he speaks "Go and bring me some water". I'm always like "but baba cant you just say FATSUMAA WATER so I don't take two trips?" but most of the times I get lucky to receive a handful of sweets, fruits, coins or other goodies instead of the usual errands.
Back on the errands, I ran his errands so much my grandmother gets tired and point out "are you the only child in the house or doesn't he know your sister's name?. I followed her advice one day and kept quite, poor man called like five times and when there was no reply, he shouted "Bilki" and we all burst out laughing saying "Oh so he knows there are other kids in the house" .
As a kid, I always ask him to stop calling me "Fatsuma" and call me "MUFIDA" & he replied "Look your name is Fatsuma, I can't call you this modern names Fufida or Mufifa or whatever it is" When I look back now, I realized he was the last person to ever call me by my First name & I feel sad about every single day I asked him not to.
This is to a man we cherish so much, the strongest man I've ever come across, the man who taught me a lot of things, who taught me the values of the hijab, the man who's call to prayer send me running to follow the jam'i, the man who showered me with gifts every single day of his life non-stop (even on his sick bed).
Its been 5years today but the pain in my heart is still the same. we miss you Baba. You lived a great life full of love, sharing, respect and kindness (the least I can mention because I could go on and on with a never ending list.). May Allah's noor illuminate your Qabr and may His Rahma forever be with you. Ya Allah bless my grandfather and all of the Muslim ummah with Jannatul Firdaus. Ameen

Dedicated to my Father:
Sadiq Kassim

Written 21-3-13 (I wanted to wait for the perfect time to show you)
He is always with us in mind and soul.
Mal Kassim Ali (19th April 2009)

IMPOSSIBLE!

Where is our faith?
Where is our belief?
What happened to our trust in Allah?
Have we forgotten our articles of faith?
This questions I kept asking myself for quite a long time and still haven't got any answers to.

I read a certain hadith that says "If anyone of you believes in Allah and he is asked to move a mountain and he trust's Allah then he can move it." & also an old proverb of the same nature that says "FAITH CAN MOVE MOUNTAINS". We claim to believe in Allah yet we think and sometimes believe that some things cannot be done. (Astaghfirullah) .. Yes I repeat we don't believe Allah can do some things for us. Hold your judgments and follow my examples.

Last two weeks, a video clip went viral about this Sudanese shepherd who refused to accept 200 Riyals to pretend to the owner of the flock that he has lost one of the sheep when asked to be sold despite his desperate need, he said "Even if you give me 200 thousand by Allah I will not accept and sell to you. What am I going to do when I go to my grave and meet my Creator? If I accept, I'm afraid the sky will collapse on me" He continued "Mustaheel sah? (IMPOSSIBLE RIGHT?) But Allah is looking at me.

I sat down once listening to some girls chatter and one was talking about how she wished to be so and so and get married to a so called icon (A celebrity, An Arab prince.......). All I could hear from the friends were words like "Impossible, are you crazy, stop dreaming, wake up..... I really couldn't let the conversation keep going as I just jumped in and asked "WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR FAITH? WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOUR BELIEF? WHAT DID YOU DO WITH YOUR HEART?
With Allah, The word IMPOSSIBLE doesn't exist. Prophet Muhammad SAW married Khadija (RDA) who was a very rich woman at his time & he had nothing. Did Bill Gates say No to his dreams because they were IMPOSSIBLE to pursue?. Did Oprah Winfrey stopped? Mandela went from Prison to President, was that also impossible? Goodluck Jonathan once had no shoes.....

Sit down and think. Why do we use the word Impossible? where did we put our trust in Allah? why did we lost hope? Remember, you are not a true Muslim until you belief in all the articles of Faith.
Lets Join hands and renew our trust in Allah.
Lets remove the word IMPOSSIBLE from our lives.
Lets change our ways of thinking.
Lets use our Faith to move mountains.
With Allah, everything is Possible.

Astaghfirlillah wa atuubu Ilayk.

(Written: Sunday 2nd March 2014, Statistics {Community Medicine} Class 10:36am)

DEDICATED TO ALL THOSE THAT HAVE BEEN TOLD its impossible. WITH ALLAH, EVERYTHING IS POSSIBLE... Have FAITH, TRUST in ALLAH, BELIEVE & HOPE.!

Blessed

Allah's blessings are uncountable. The gift of life is a blessing, being healthy is a blessing, being able to eat, drink, sleep, talk, move, smile... all there are bountiful blessings we receive every second from Allah (SWT) yet always forget to be thankful of.
Last year on this very date ( 24.3.12), I received a gift, a blessing I am forever grateful for, a blessing I hope lasts my entire life, I was blessed with a FRIEND. Walking up the stairs of Afrah that evening & having our first few talks was amazing. You know how they say first impressions last forever, this friend gave me one of the best first impressions.

This gift I received is forever counted as a blessing, a gift of someone who is just more than a friend but a Role-model, a teacher (Mr Lecturer), an advisor (My chief Advisor), a brother (the big brother I always wanted), one of the only people I am myself around, someone I look up to & want to be like in a few years. When the words 'smart' and 'intelligent' are used, my mind just race to one person.. this friend. I always say "May Allah give me what He has given you" and amidst laughter, the reply is always "Mufida you have got it all".
This is to someone I am so thankful to have in my life. Its been only a year but the happiness and joy I got together with this gift I'm still grateful of. May Allah continue to guide & protect you in this world to the hereafter. I will always pray for you & thankful for having to meet you in my lifetime.
(P.S: Allah ya baka mata ta gari mara Duka)

(Written: 12:25 to 2:32pm, Biochemistry Class. It took me this long because I couldn't get the right words to describe you fully.)

Forgiveness

Being cheated on, stabbed, pierced, neglected but never been broken made me strong. Why do I want to cheat, stab, pierce, neglect or break yet I cant. Why??, Is it because I'm thoughtful, or because I'm just a coward?. This is the question I always try to get an answer to.
I wake up every single day with confidence trying to pay back for what someone made me went through but feeling less strong to do that. Where is my strength? Am I not strong enough? I just want to end this pain. I am suffocating. I am loosing it.!
I want to change the story line. One reason: Holding on to something only angers you. Just forgive & let it go. Find your happiness. I have the strength I say to myself. I might be a Coward but I am far better than this. Holding on to a grudge, nooooo.. this is not me. I should just let go.
Ya Allah forgive us of our Sins, Help us forgive others and help them accept our forgiveness. I have learn to forgive & forget so as to find that happiness deep within. May Allah help us all.

(Please find a way to Forgive me as I did.)

PS; Don't mind my drawing. ( :) )

(Written: 12:20pm Physiology Class)

The Inspiration, Cupids Arrow, The Promise & Hope.!

Like Cupid's Arrow she pierced into my heart, her childish smile and charming eyes makes you look at her twice. We relate in most of her crazy wild ideas especially regarding GUYS.! This is to a friend who means so much to me, who I see every single school day yet miss as soon as I got home. I love you so much SIHAAM.! Be the good girl I've always known you to be.!

I could not choose the right words to describe the Calm and Gentle One. Beautiful might be the word some might think I mean the appearance only but NO. Waad is beautiful inside out. Her face defines beauty especially when she adds that smile to it. Her heart is beautiful for a beautiful heart holds good deeds. I look at her & see someone I would like to be, smart, beautiful, gentle, kind, sweet.. on and on and on I could go but I have no words to describe her fully.!

I love you Waad.! Looking forward to know you more. (P.S: My daughter might have your name In sha Allah)!

Mona.! Mona.! Mona.! The bold & beautiful, the elegant and cute. I always look up to her fashion ideas. I love her confidence and the ways she gives advices especially my Sami Yusuf obsession part and always happy she supports me (giggles). I see a very wonderful & courageous woman in her & hope to spend more time to know you more.

I love you too Mona.!

She inspires me a lot especially in class (physiology). I call her the WILD FLOWER. Beautiful and calm on the outside but sometimes the crazy wild part of Elham wants to sprung out. (LOL). I see a good leader in her, the way she handles the class group & in making decisions too. I love it when she says "Ohh Mufida I love you too" because it always pierces me through.

I love you Elham.

This is for the people I call FRIENDS, the people who changed my life in one way or the other, the people I think are sometimes the reason why I go to school {except for ATTENDANCE. =))}. I love you girls so much. It has just been a semester but I hope to know you all better & more.

{P.S: please teach me to be more serious like you girls. I was writing this in Physiology class :( }.

Moments

People talk about Wonders of the world, people spend a lot of money to travel to places like The great wall of China, the Giza pyramids in Cairo, the grand Canyon and many other places of attraction. They describe their moments there as one of the best they've ever had.. Its so hard to say a particular moment holds the best feeling you have ever felt or the most wonderful moment you have ever had, but for ME, I have this one beautiful moment I wish I had saved to replay whenever I want to because it is the BEST moment I have ever had, it holds the best feelings I have ever felt..
I could remember like 3 days earlier, my sister and brother came into the hotel room at around Subh (dawn). The smiles on their faces and the scent of Musk and perfume they were carrying I couldn't explain. They looked like they've won a lotto. I never knew what their happiness was worth until three days later.
I took a deep breath and with the word ''Bismillah'' and my right foot forward, I took a step into this Magnificent place. I walked in holding my sister's hand & pulling the end of my brothers shirt as they dragged me . My face showed no expression as I was having some mood swings earlier that day but I was anxious inside. I kept repeating "are we there yet, are we there yet" but my mind was like "Just keep going".

There in front of me stood "THE FIRST WONDER OF THE WORLD", the best place of attraction, a HOUSE built by Angels and Prophets, a place where worship has never stopped and where different races come together as a family with peace to worship in the name of ISLAM. This was my first sight of the HOLY KA'ABA.
I had this smile on my face I haven't seen my whole life, the light that brightened my heart and the feelings that engulfed me were the first I have ever felt. Each second counts as I gazed at this huge black building with gate of gold and scent of Musk .
The day was Sunday 21st August 2011. Talking of best MOMENTS, I have nothing more to say. This day holds my BEST.