Forgiveness

Being cheated on, stabbed, pierced, neglected but never been broken made me strong. Why do I want to cheat, stab, pierce, neglect or break yet I cant. Why??, Is it because I'm thoughtful, or because I'm just a coward?. This is the question I always try to get an answer to.
I wake up every single day with confidence trying to pay back for what someone made me went through but feeling less strong to do that. Where is my strength? Am I not strong enough? I just want to end this pain. I am suffocating. I am loosing it.!
I want to change the story line. One reason: Holding on to something only angers you. Just forgive & let it go. Find your happiness. I have the strength I say to myself. I might be a Coward but I am far better than this. Holding on to a grudge, nooooo.. this is not me. I should just let go.
Ya Allah forgive us of our Sins, Help us forgive others and help them accept our forgiveness. I have learn to forgive & forget so as to find that happiness deep within. May Allah help us all.

(Please find a way to Forgive me as I did.)

PS; Don't mind my drawing. ( :) )

(Written: 12:20pm Physiology Class)