Blessed

Allah's blessings are uncountable. The gift of life is a blessing, being healthy is a blessing, being able to eat, drink, sleep, talk, move, smile... all there are bountiful blessings we receive every second from Allah (SWT) yet always forget to be thankful of.
Last year on this very date ( 24.3.12), I received a gift, a blessing I am forever grateful for, a blessing I hope lasts my entire life, I was blessed with a FRIEND. Walking up the stairs of Afrah that evening & having our first few talks was amazing. You know how they say first impressions last forever, this friend gave me one of the best first impressions.

This gift I received is forever counted as a blessing, a gift of someone who is just more than a friend but a Role-model, a teacher (Mr Lecturer), an advisor (My chief Advisor), a brother (the big brother I always wanted), one of the only people I am myself around, someone I look up to & want to be like in a few years. When the words 'smart' and 'intelligent' are used, my mind just race to one person.. this friend. I always say "May Allah give me what He has given you" and amidst laughter, the reply is always "Mufida you have got it all".
This is to someone I am so thankful to have in my life. Its been only a year but the happiness and joy I got together with this gift I'm still grateful of. May Allah continue to guide & protect you in this world to the hereafter. I will always pray for you & thankful for having to meet you in my lifetime.
(P.S: Allah ya baka mata ta gari mara Duka)

(Written: 12:25 to 2:32pm, Biochemistry Class. It took me this long because I couldn't get the right words to describe you fully.)

Forgiveness

Being cheated on, stabbed, pierced, neglected but never been broken made me strong. Why do I want to cheat, stab, pierce, neglect or break yet I cant. Why??, Is it because I'm thoughtful, or because I'm just a coward?. This is the question I always try to get an answer to.
I wake up every single day with confidence trying to pay back for what someone made me went through but feeling less strong to do that. Where is my strength? Am I not strong enough? I just want to end this pain. I am suffocating. I am loosing it.!
I want to change the story line. One reason: Holding on to something only angers you. Just forgive & let it go. Find your happiness. I have the strength I say to myself. I might be a Coward but I am far better than this. Holding on to a grudge, nooooo.. this is not me. I should just let go.
Ya Allah forgive us of our Sins, Help us forgive others and help them accept our forgiveness. I have learn to forgive & forget so as to find that happiness deep within. May Allah help us all.

(Please find a way to Forgive me as I did.)

PS; Don't mind my drawing. ( :) )

(Written: 12:20pm Physiology Class)

The Inspiration, Cupids Arrow, The Promise & Hope.!

Like Cupid's Arrow she pierced into my heart, her childish smile and charming eyes makes you look at her twice. We relate in most of her crazy wild ideas especially regarding GUYS.! This is to a friend who means so much to me, who I see every single school day yet miss as soon as I got home. I love you so much SIHAAM.! Be the good girl I've always known you to be.!

I could not choose the right words to describe the Calm and Gentle One. Beautiful might be the word some might think I mean the appearance only but NO. Waad is beautiful inside out. Her face defines beauty especially when she adds that smile to it. Her heart is beautiful for a beautiful heart holds good deeds. I look at her & see someone I would like to be, smart, beautiful, gentle, kind, sweet.. on and on and on I could go but I have no words to describe her fully.!

I love you Waad.! Looking forward to know you more. (P.S: My daughter might have your name In sha Allah)!

Mona.! Mona.! Mona.! The bold & beautiful, the elegant and cute. I always look up to her fashion ideas. I love her confidence and the ways she gives advices especially my Sami Yusuf obsession part and always happy she supports me (giggles). I see a very wonderful & courageous woman in her & hope to spend more time to know you more.

I love you too Mona.!

She inspires me a lot especially in class (physiology). I call her the WILD FLOWER. Beautiful and calm on the outside but sometimes the crazy wild part of Elham wants to sprung out. (LOL). I see a good leader in her, the way she handles the class group & in making decisions too. I love it when she says "Ohh Mufida I love you too" because it always pierces me through.

I love you Elham.

This is for the people I call FRIENDS, the people who changed my life in one way or the other, the people I think are sometimes the reason why I go to school {except for ATTENDANCE. =))}. I love you girls so much. It has just been a semester but I hope to know you all better & more.

{P.S: please teach me to be more serious like you girls. I was writing this in Physiology class :( }.

Moments

People talk about Wonders of the world, people spend a lot of money to travel to places like The great wall of China, the Giza pyramids in Cairo, the grand Canyon and many other places of attraction. They describe their moments there as one of the best they've ever had.. Its so hard to say a particular moment holds the best feeling you have ever felt or the most wonderful moment you have ever had, but for ME, I have this one beautiful moment I wish I had saved to replay whenever I want to because it is the BEST moment I have ever had, it holds the best feelings I have ever felt..
I could remember like 3 days earlier, my sister and brother came into the hotel room at around Subh (dawn). The smiles on their faces and the scent of Musk and perfume they were carrying I couldn't explain. They looked like they've won a lotto. I never knew what their happiness was worth until three days later.
I took a deep breath and with the word ''Bismillah'' and my right foot forward, I took a step into this Magnificent place. I walked in holding my sister's hand & pulling the end of my brothers shirt as they dragged me . My face showed no expression as I was having some mood swings earlier that day but I was anxious inside. I kept repeating "are we there yet, are we there yet" but my mind was like "Just keep going".

There in front of me stood "THE FIRST WONDER OF THE WORLD", the best place of attraction, a HOUSE built by Angels and Prophets, a place where worship has never stopped and where different races come together as a family with peace to worship in the name of ISLAM. This was my first sight of the HOLY KA'ABA.
I had this smile on my face I haven't seen my whole life, the light that brightened my heart and the feelings that engulfed me were the first I have ever felt. Each second counts as I gazed at this huge black building with gate of gold and scent of Musk .
The day was Sunday 21st August 2011. Talking of best MOMENTS, I have nothing more to say. This day holds my BEST. 

Sami Yusuf

His face defines PEACE. 
His smile defines LOVE.
In his eyes you can see HOPE.
My journey through life led me to this wonderful soul who changed me through his words and deeds. People call them lyrics, I call them "words of Wisdom". People say no one is perfect, but to me He is perfect, His ways are perfect, his deeds perfect, I always pray he is perfect in the eyes of Allah.
I believe Allah sent him to my life as a Guidance through Islaam, Love, Peace, Justice , the Good ....... etc.
I don't think a day has ever went by without having him in my thoughts. I fell in love with my Hero, my Role- model and my Guidance.
Sami Yusuf, ; You helped me find my way.!